THURSDAY
a very upset and disappointed day.
dar without letting me noe he knock off
and he went home bath n changed
straight went to meet up with his frz.
if my friend didn't saw him guess i'll be hide from this forever
sad right?
wad else can i say?
i'm use to it.
that's y i dun believe n not i'm negative
but i tink trust is really important in a relationship
first tin come in my mind i didn't get angry
but i checked n asked why he lidat
but he jus said: i too long nv meet my frz le
but is a must to lie?
he said i wont allowed
but i nv once dun allowed
but he scare i'll be angry so he seldom go
i allowed only :
-u can drink but not drunk and not alot
-u can go but don't off hp
-where u go let me noe
-who going let me noe
-dun over spent
and here u go ur freedom.
am i mean?or over doing it?
no right.. i guess every girls does this.
but indeed he lied
and is like again and again
i'm really felt like giving up.
who understanding me overall?
i endure so much, take in so much
all bec of who?
why must i see others face
or even let others comment abt me
gossip about me?
and stand up for u whenever people say u
i can dun even give a damn to it.
why must i care ?
i can simply leave u if i wan
but i nv once
bec i noe i do love you alot.
and i cherish it
but after all same thing happened
who's the stubborn, negative, attitude liar?
none but you.
why do others mistook me as such a bad gf?
WHY?
i hope you really noe the problem lays on you.
after i had tells u wad inside my heart
and after listened to what u replied
i believe this is the very last chance
is all depend on you.
i hope you do cherish it.
FRIDAY
to apologies dar acc me to interview
and i had jus 3 hrs sleep
cuz 2am after his drink and meet up with his frz
he came my hse n look for me
and for this i shed my tears for him once again
bec i'm always e last
everyone leave and
TADAH...
my exist.
sadded right?
like i said jealousy kills
cuz not always u see is so perfect
nth to jealous about and even gossip about
i'm strong i can say
i cried, i sad, my heart broke
but after awhile i'll be ok
jus that i'm not that cheerful me anymore
i always care more about my frz
and of my family always 1st la
now BF.. but disappointment
after the interview went to his hse
we had some talk and my first time tells him evrything
without caring will hurt his pride or wadever ma
and i leave his hse without even care and tink
after that, bring my listener for a walk
that's my precious dog.who always be der for me.
sitted and penny stuffs in mind
msging with dar
he worried
but i dun seem to care
i tink i'm really give up
but after all.. i didn't
i might be pissed off and mad of him
but i jus dunno why
so i told him i'll be going town to find darl jusjus
pass her present
dar said he wan acc me go, and do some shopping
so my tinking was he acc me go shopping n pass present
so only me n him for the day.
BUT I WAS WRONG
jus happened not more than 10hrs
but again thing happened
he msg me again
said like got 1 more programme
i tht surprises?
but i tink cant be la he so unromantic
and i'm right
i called and asked wad thing
he said after shopping meet with darl jusjus
i follow him go meet his frz
i was like sooooooooo ANGRY
again he planned n told his frz le
i'm last to noe
so i said den u go meet with ur frz i meet jusjus
he said alright i stay @ home
i dun wanna out today le
let me ask u guys....
from wad i said
i dun seem to have a choice right?
so we started to argue again
and again i needed explained to him
and repeat all over again
ended up stick with the 1st plan
me and him only
i seldom wrote unhappy thing about me n dar
cuz i dun wan it to be a memories
but today i feel like this is wad i called GIVE and TAKE
if not a relationship wont last.
right or wrong is not important
important is u accepted it or not
SAD face
FAKE smile face
finally, smiled
brought a $10 top dress is sux lo
wear le not nice de
waste 10bucks
dar said like throw 10dollars to rubbish bin
but how not nice i'll make it nice this is me (:
and brought a $10 short pant LOLS.
all day foods is more exp den top and short
-_-
something funny
dar ordering food :
excuse me.. gimmi 1 CHICKEN 1 PIG
WAHAHAHAHA
1 couple beside us laughed
the person take order was like HUH
i jus cant stop laughing
PIG=PORK
so next time instead of beef we must said COW
hehehe...
see this post dun angry uh.
jus to makes others smile.
back to main point
darl jusjus birthday present...
grabbed from her blog :
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darling... hope you like the lil gift from me.
no matter how rarely we meet
you're always my best friend.
and i always love you and care for you.
HAPPY 21st birthday...
KELLY
LOVES of my life*
that's my precious dog.
